Sunday, July 31, 2011

things that make me cry

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2.

That was so damn good. So damn epic. Such a good damn ending...and I can't really bring myself to say it, but yes. It all ends. It is over, and no a finally does not freaking go there.

Snape! Just...SNAPE!

God, that scene with him hugging Lily's dead body and crying and looking so damn torn apart...
The Great Hall filled with casualties- Fred, and oh- Remus and Tonks! Remus...and Tonks...
And with the Resurrection Stone. God, the Stone. That killed me.

As did this: http://mols.tumblr.com/post/7563880332

I freaking sobbed (silently) at that ^. READ that. If you are a Harry Potter lover, read that.

HELL yeah.

I am so damn proud to be part of the Harry Potter generation.

I believe...

I support gay rights.
No, just because I support does not mean that I'm necessarily a lesbian. One of my friends is, but I've supported gay rights for a while. What's the point of being hateful? I mean, seriously. Life is life.
Life is short.
Life's a bitch.
There's so many sayings like that- why do you want to make someone else's life bad?

Saturday, July 30, 2011

This reminds me of...

my childhood. Or at least, younger days.

I'm may only be a teenager now, but still.

It's 1:42 AM now, and I love the staying up.

Didn't we all love staying up really, really late? I'm doing it again now, and it's nostalgic.

I looked up an old song from when I was a kid. She Couldn't Change Me, by Montgomery Gentry.
My parents and I had an old country CD that was pretty much all we listened to when I was a kid- I only really started listening to music in ninth grade- and this was one of my favorite songs from that.

I still remember the words.

I feel kind of like when I looked up the old Pokemon theme songs (from the BEGINNING seasons, the REALLYFREAKINGGOODONES) and I still remembered those words, too. From five to eight years ago...

I feel like Sky Chord ~ Otona Ni Naru something by Tsuji Shion is kind of like my song.
I'll parse out the lyrics in another post, but here's a bit of the chorus:

I know for sure there are things more precious than growing up.
I know for sure that those will remain unfindable (>.< ick. a bit wordy.) and I'll still be growing up along the way.

And then part of the second verse:

I always wanted to stay awake until the morning/back in the time when I was an impatient kid.

So. Yeah.

Monday, July 25, 2011

I hate people that...

  • insist on speaking another language to me when I've stated multiple times that I do not understand the language
  • insist on disagreeing with something
  • are close-minded
  • people who dismiss my choices
I guess what I'm trying to get at is that sometimes, people really fucking annoy me.

Take an example that happened - oh, maybe two minutes ago? Probably three.

I've carpooled with this one girl for the past two years. I have not liked it.
To be more fair than I feel like being, it's probably not her fault. Mostly. I always feel unreasonably intimidated (not physically.) when I'm with her, because she seems to just be better.
Actually, who knows? Maybe those kinds of people do go out of their ways to cultivate their reputation like that.
I don't particularly care.

Anyway, her mother has been calling mine. (I'm out of town in Boston for a program, so I've been really busy.) My  mom just called her back. It turns out that she wants to carpool next year AGAIN, despite the fact that she (the girl) has a car and was supposed to be getting her own ride to school (again, really don't care.).

What she says now is that she wants to carpool, for reasons unknown.

She then proceeded to promptly dismiss one of my elective-electives (it doesn't even count as a class; it's a PSAT prep class that's an hour before school actually starts.) as 'stupid and pointless, it won't help [her] at all'.
Now, granted, I am in a fairly rigorous out-of-school SAT prep class (it's freaking good too.), my auto-response was 'what the fuck?'.

I think I'm granted to it.

What the fuck? Who the fuck is she to judge anyfuckingthing I want to do?!?!?!?!

Yeah.

It's really fucking annoying though, not to mention that it hurts. I guess it's something between 'do I really deserve that sheer lack of thought before blurting some random shit out?' and 'are my decisions really that bad?'.

Buuuuuuuuuuut anyway. On to dinner.

Friday, July 15, 2011

Squealing

There are VEEEEEERRY few things I squeal about (or admit to, at least.), and anime is definitely (I think) the only thing.

Example: The new FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST: BROTHERHOOD MOVIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'M SMILING LIKE AN IDIOT NOW AND I CAN'T CAN'T CAN'T WAIT.


I love that I can understand random bits of stuff from the trailers!

Yatsu no chikara, chikara, atarashii sekai, atarashii sekai ga nai!!! (Ed right there.), Chuui, AKLGJ ioefj EPTJUipoetLOJi

FKL ADJFKLJEWRIOT U4I3UT-O4TKPO PO P32O48936854163
2

EOKCT JFIPODJAFLJDKLFJALFJOERGTLR/


I can't wait.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Sky Chord by Tsuji Shion, AKA JAPANESE!

Mmmmmmmmmmm.......... I love Japanese!

So I'm going to parse out some lyrics just for you Kidding. It's for me too.

HERE WE GO!

Sunao na uta ga utaenai
I can't sing an honest song.
Kazaritsukete shimau kara
Because I always end up sugar-coating it.
Itsukara konna ni raku ni jibun
Since when have I been able to
Mamorukoto wo oboeta no.
protect myself so easily?
Kotei kara mieru sora
You can see the sky above the schoolyard-
Kimi ni wa nani iro ni utsuru?
What color catches your eye?
Tada masshiro na kumo - demo, tokini
There're only pure-white clouds - but sometimes
Makkuro ni kaetaku naru
I just want them to turn pure-black.


That's the first stanza of it. I was planning to color-code them all (English translation and Japanese word the same color), but I figured that instead of destroying your eyes I'd put a glossary of sorts at the bottom.

Uta (oo-tah, long a sound) - song
Sunao (soo-nah-oh, long a sound on the 'nah') - honest
Kumo (koo-moh, long o then short o) - clouds (in this context. In other contexts, kumo also means spider.)
Kotei (koh-tay-ee, short o sound, then try to say 'eh' on the 'te') - schoolyard
Sora (so-rah, long a on the rah) - sky
Tada (like you'd think, except a little less harshly) - just/only. [It's just my cousin, it's only my cousin.]
Shiro (she-roh) - white
Masshiro (mah-she-roh) - adding the suffix 'ma' [and the tsu character] makes it pure white
Kuro (koo-roh) - black
Makkuro (mah-koo-roh) - pure black. Same as with shiro and masshiro.

Those are the random nouns.

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Feelin' great

and Shoujo S by SCANDAL is my new theme song.
Seriously rockin' out here by myself, and I feel freaking great.
You wish you were me, don't you? ;] it's all good. Just dress up in that oh-so-casual but sexy dark jeans (no name-brands here, sorry!) and black T with white and gray swirls and are those rhinestones? They sure do look hot. Paired with a high-clipped ponytail and curls just brushing the neck and a totally bared collarbone, sss hot!

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

See?

Already back!
Just a quick update about the fireworks yesterday, then I'll upload my Omegle adventures.

Last night's fireworks were...interesting. I videoed them with my iTouch for most of the show, but they  just didn't have that special awe for me- maybe I've outgrown them? Regardless, I convinced my dad to let us stay the whole show.
Out of pure luck, we got a parking spot right in front of the field-thing.
Of course, when we were leaving, some idiot hit another car in front of us. And it was a Mustang that got hit. Even I know that a Mustang is a freakin' good car.
The idiot had a tall (?) SUV car thing and the rear-windshield cleared the top of the Mustang, so he backed up and bumped the Mustang. I really, really hope nothing happened to the Mustang, because after 5-10 minutes of talking and arguing, they all left.

Of course.........there was so much traffic that it took us ten minutes to GET THERE, and half an hour to GET OUT.


I'm the kind of girl that goes around in jeans and a top, so when I dress up even a bit (ie; look girly or dressy) I'm received with surprise and sometimes astonishment, which is really pretty affronting. Is that a word? No, it isn't. Either way, I am affronted (there.) when people are like 'OMG ---- YOU LOOK GIRLY!'. I clean up pretty well, I just don't spend two hours getting ready in the morning- hello, I'm sleeping. I stay up doing homework, I get up at a decent time in the morning.
Anyway. I was remembering that if my friends saw me yesterday, they'd be like 'woah.'. I wore a bit-above-the-knees white puffy skirt, a tank-top that was white with navy polka-dots, and a (what?) light gray (grey looks pretty too) cardigan-thing. I'm not sure of the name...it's more like a shrug. Not knit, no buttons, just the kind that's really flowy and silky-feeling and ties in the front.

Maybe a picture of that later? And the video of fireworks. And omegle.
But now I have to go finish an application and STUDY my butt off! Bye!

Monday, July 4, 2011

Updates! And Happy Fourth.

It's kind of ironic that despite the fact that it's this country's INDEPENDENCE DAY and more places are open now than on Christmas.

Our government is supposed to be secular, hello.

Please don't rave at me about Christianity and how it is the one true right way and that you BELIEVE in Him and all, because I am tolerant now and am trying to get my views straightened out.


As it is, I think that blogging is a MUCH more effective way of wast-I mean spending my time at the laptop, rather than going on Facebook or whatever. Although I must admit I have a bad weakness for the CAPSLOCK_BLEACH macros that they put out every Thursday. Ah, LiveJournal, what would we do without you? (probably end up on tumblr or xanga or something, right?)







There, isn't that a great haiku?
In case it's hard to read:

Haikus are easy

But sometimes they don't make sense

Refrigerator


and it's on a background of a [coughstereotypicalcough] beautiful [I still love them!] sakura (or cherryblossom) tree, with...a refriDgerator. Smiling a ' :D ' face and running.




As a note (a nod to my slightly OCD style), the correct plural form of haiku is still haiku.


Japanese nouns in general don't change from singular to plural.

(In a few specific cases such as pronouns [ or what passes for a pronoun in Japanese... ] it occasionally does change, such as changing boku (or I) to bokura (or we) by adding the -ra.)


Examples: kumo means cloud or clouds.


You have to tell by context in almost everything Japanese (although really, with clouds it's pretty safe to assume that 99.9997% of the time it'll be plural. I haven't yet come across anything with a single cloud yet in any language, except perhaps saying 'OH LOOK, A HEART IN THE SKY'.)


So, yeah, there's today's lesson on Japanese!




Updates:


I still have not taken Driver's Ed. I do not think I will have time to take it this year...so probably next summer -.-


Next school year, I will be officially embarking on the International Baccalaureate Program, which means that I will be taking: SIX IB courses, which are equivalent to AP courses hopped up on coffee and steriods (Disclaimer: Not my metaphor.), at least one AP course, and depending on whether I get into a club, either an entire period dedicated to studying for that club or another AP course.


As of now, my schedule stands as:

IB English III

IB Precalculus*

IB Physics I*

IB US History

IB French IV

IB Computer Science

AP Economics / either a club-study-course or AP Psychology


Isn't it wonderful?


(* The star: IB does not do introduction courses. As in, they will not and do not offer the first year on any subject. As it is, instead of a 5.0 weighted scale for the first years of Calc. and Phys., I get a 4.5, but I'm still classified as an IB student.)


Joy!

And the weirdest part about it?

I'm really, really happy about this.



By the way:

I just got back from a program called NSLC (National Student Leadership Conference) at UC Berkeley (so freaking amazing), and it changed my life.

I wouldn't really think twice about calling that experience the best ten days of my life.

So if you're thinking about it and can afford to go and all (and even if you can't, they have scholarships.), GO. It'll change your life if you take it seriously. GO.

I loved it.




I've dubbed this the Summer of Reform for myself, and this summer I intend to do everything that I had planned.


1. two online courses: PE Individual and PE Team Sports. I know, I know...it's so freaking lame that I couldn't fit PHYSICAL EDUCATION into my schedule, but hey: I'm in freaking IB. I'm glad I got to stick with BAND my freshman year!


2. studying for ACDEC: Academic Decathlon, which is TEN SUBJECTS that I need to know METICULOUSLY and BY FREAKING-PERFECTLY HEART to have a change of making the team, upon which I will then be called upon to USE this knowledge in COMPETITIONS.

Yeah.


3. AND I WILL GET THIS FRAKKING DONE: writing my novel. Yes, you see that right.


4. LOL there isn't any point to adding more ;D


5. WAIT YES THERE IS volunteering at places.









SO YES THAT IS MY LIFE :D



THE HEART.

Sorry...

Okay, this isn't fair.
I've been telling myself and telling myself that I'll be posting more often, but I think now is going to be when it starts.
NOTE: From here on out the topics are going to be so diverse (ranging from my life [and problems, of course. What else is an online journal for? ^^ ] to me raving about Japan and Japanese [total Japanophile here. Explanation later.] to possible reviews and such things) that they may possibly give you whiplash.
Don't say I didn't warn you!